“What’s up guys! It’s Qolrine again!” my girl greeted with a wide smile plastered on her face in front of her camera. She’s obviously doing her vlog again.
“Baby, come and greet our viewers!” she stood up, and drag me in front of her camera. I shook my head and greeted her fans with “Hi.”
“He’s so grumpy, ‘no? But he’s so sweet kapag walang camera, ” she laughed on her statement. Naiiling na iniwan ko na muna siya sa harap ng camera niya and let her do her thing.
Qolrine and I is already in a relationship for five years now. Our relationship wasn’t perfect at all, lalo’t hindi nalalayo sa showbiz ang ginagawa niyang vlogging.
There was a time nang pinagtalunan namin ang challenge na pinagagawa sa kanya nang isa sa mga viewers niya. They set a challenge on her to drink one gallon of a milk tea. Like what the fudge?
It’s freaking risky for her health pero gusto niyang gawin dahil request nang viewers niya. Kaya pinagtalunan namin ‘yon.
Qolrine has a problem on her heart. May sakit siya sa puso, at bawal sa kanya ang sobrang malungkot, matuwa, o magalit. She also have a asthma kaya mas lalong complicated ang health niya.
“Love, alam mo na ba ‘yong kumakalat na virus?” she asked after her filming. I nodded my head in response. “Magpalakas ka ng resistensya ha? Para hindi ka mahawa.”
I chuckled and pinched her cheeks. “Ikaw ang dapat magpalusog, para hindi ka tamaan nang virus na ‘yon,” we both laugh with what I said.
“Nga pala, kauuwi lang ni Tita from China. She’ll pay a visit here tomorrow.” my forehead creased on confusion on what she have said.
“Ang alam ko pinag bawal na’ng Presidente ang paglabas at pasok kapag galing ka sa ibang bansa lalo sa China. Dahil naroon nanggaling ang virus,”
She shrugged her shoulder, “Healthy naman si Tita, she will never be infected by that virus.” she give me an assuring smile.
Time passed by in a blur. I was about to go on their house to pay a visit because she’s consistently complaining of head aches, and also has a fever when I asked her mom with her conditioned kaso natigilan ako nang mareceived ang text niya.
From: My Girl ❤
Hi Love! I’m really not feeling well. I’m afraid na mahawaan kita if you visited me here. So, ‘wag na okay? I’ll be alright sooner or later don’t worry. I love you!
“Son, aalis ka ba? Are you going to visit Qolrine? I heard magkakaroon ng community quarantine sa lugar natin. The situation are getting worst,” my Mom asked me nang makita akong naka bihis.
“Qolrine doesn’t want me to visit her for now. Baka raw mahawaan niya ako. Silly girl.” I kissed my Mom’s forehead saka nag paalam na pupunta na muna sa kwarto.
The NCOV19 from China is now spreading here on Philippines kaya lalo akong nag-aalala sa sitwasyon ni Qolrine. Narinig ko kasi na mabilis mahawaan ang mga taong mahihina ang immune system lalo’t may nakasamang na expose sa virus.
“Love, paano kung ma-infect ako nang virus? Mamahalin mo pa rin ba ako?” she asked when I called her kinabukasan. Her voice was not that energetic maybe because she’s still not feeling well.
“Silly. Ano ba ‘yang sinasabi mo? Hindi ka maiinfect niyang virus na ‘yan. Strong ka ‘di ba?” I said, trying to encourage her. “Isa pa, my love for you isn’t virtual. Mamahalin pa rin kita hangga’t buhay ako. Ikaw lang ang mamahalin ko.”
“Aww. Ang sweet talaga ng mahal ko. I love you so much! Ikaw lang din ang mamahalin ko hangga’t buhay ako, and even if I die today? Ikaw at ikaw pa rin.” my heart melted on what she have said. Alam na alam niya talaga kung paano ako lalambingin. I’m falling for her in every possible way.
“Kumusta na pala sa place niyo, Baby?” I asked hoping na nasa maayos naman silang sitwasyon.
“Ayos naman, Love. May pupuntang health doctor dito to check my condition later on, baka daw kasi infected na ako dahil nagkaroon ako ng exposure kay Tita na nag tested positive na.” she sighed. Parang dinamba ang puso ko sa narinig. There’s a possibility na mag negative ang result, pero hindi ko pa rin maiwasan ang kabahan. I have a lot of dreams with her in the future. Hindi siya pwedeng mawala. Hindi pa siya pwedeng mawala.
“Love, are you still there? Pray for me, sana hindi mag tested positive. Neverthless, I want you to know that I love you very much. I’m so blessed to have you as my man. Ingatan mo ang sarili mo ha?”
I frowned. “Don’t utter words na parang huling araw mo na. Magpalakas ka ng katawan mo, mamahalin pa kita at magde-date pa tayo.” she laughed on what I’ve said.
“Of course! Babalitaan kita sa magiging result. Sige na, Love. Matutulog na ‘ko to have a rest bago ang test. I love you from the bottom of my hypothalamus!”
“I love you so much too, my girl.”
Kinabukasan ay hindi ako mapakali. Paikot-ikot at pagulong-gulong ako sa kama habang iniisip kung ano nang nangyayari sa mahal ko.
I can’t afford to lose her. Not now.
Hindi ako nakatulog nang gabing ‘yon kaiisip kung ano na ang kalagayan ng pinaka mamahal kong babae next to my mom. Kaya laking pasasalamat ko nang dumating na ang araw na lalabas na ang result ng test niya. I immediately called her pero nag-a-out of coverage area. Nakapatay siguro ang phone niya, or nakalimutan niya i-charge.
I keep on convincing myself that she was fine at nag negative ang test niya while dialing her mother’s number. I’m silently praying that Qolrine is alright. That God spare her from this virus.
“H-Hello, Anak?” her mom greeted from the other line.
“Hello po, Tita. How’s Qolrine’s situation? Ayos lang po ba siya? Did her test resulted negative?” sunod-sunod ang naging pagtatanong ko. Hindi agad nakakibo ang nasa kabilang linya pero maya-maya lang ay nakarinig ako ng impit na iyak, hanggang sa naging paghagulgol ito.
“T-Tita, why are you crying? What’s going on?” the nervousness was evident on my voice. Oh, God. Tell me she’s safe. Tell me she’s fine.
“H-Hijo, my d-daughter tested positive on the virus.”
My world seems to stopped as I heard her news. Tears started to shaped from my eyes as my body become numb. Slowly falling on my knees. ‘Oh God, tell me I’m just dreaming.’
“W-where is she Tita?” I asked, my voice are trembling and so my body.
“T-They take her away from me, Hijo. Hindi ko alam kung saan siyang hospital dinala.” her mother cried harder. Hindi ko na rin maiwasan ang pagpatak ng mga luha ko.
Love, where are you?
“Let’s pray for her conditioned, anak. Magpalakas ka, kailangan ni Qolrine ang lakas mo ngayon,” her mother told me before ending the call.
I was shock when Qolrine’s number flashed on the screen of my phone after a while.
“Hello, Baby?” her voice was more weak than yesterday.
“Where are you, Qolrine? Are you alright? Anong masakit sa’yo? Tell me, Baby,” sunod-sunod na tanong ko. I heard her laugh from the other line.
“Chill, Baby. Ayos lang ako, okay? Don’t worry too much. Ayoko pa namang pinag-aalala ang mahal ko,” she said sweetly. Fudge! I want to hug her!
“They brought me on a hospital, hindi ko alam kung saang hospital ‘to eh. They give me tranquilizer earlier kaya tulog ako no’ng dinala nila ako rito,” she explained.
“How are you feeling? May masakit ba sa’yo?” I asked worriedly.
“Hm. ‘Yong puso ko, ang sakit. Hindi na kasi kita nakikita at nakakasama eh.” I know she’s pouting.
“Magpagaling ka r’yan. Okay? Give me updates on your situation from time to time.”
“Yes, sir! Sige na, tumakas lang ako sa Doctor ko. They’re here to check me na. Bye, Baby ko! I love you!”
“I love you too.” the call ended.
Mabilis na dumaan ang tatlong araw. Qolrine, being true to her promise, always call, and update me with her situation. I asked to have a video call with her on the second day pero tumanggi siya dahil pumapanget na raw siya sa harap ng camera kaya ayaw niya.
I was about to call, when her name flash on the screen.
“Hi baby, kumain ka na?” I greeted her nang maitapat ko sa tainga ang telepono.
She didn’t bother to spoke up pero naririnig ko ang mabibigat na paghinga niya sa kabilang linya.
“Love can you sing our love song?” she requested. Naguguluhan man, I started to sing our favorite song; You are the Reason.
Hindi ko alam kung bakit habang kinakantahan ko siya ay bumabalik ang mga memories na pinagsaluhan namin. The moment I met her, nang maging mag kaibigan kami, when she let me court her and finally give her precious yes hanggang sa mga alaalang nagawa namin ng magkasama sa loob ng limang taon na relasyon namin.
“Love, are you crying?” she asked from the other line. Ramdam ko ang panghihina niya, at ang bawat mabibigat na hininga niya ang naririnig ko.
“N-No.” I lied. Yes, I’m freaking crying at hindi ko alam kung bakit.
“Love, mahal na mahal kita. Tatandaan mo ‘yan lagi okay? Mahal na mahal at miss na miss ko na kayo. L-Lagi niyong iingatan ang sarili niyo, ha? Lalo ka na. You should not skipped meals okay? I miss you so much, Baby ko.”
“I miss you too.”
“When God takes something away, always remember na hindi ito ang permanenteng bahay natin,” she said, almost whispering. Nakaramdam ako nang kaba. May kung anong kumalabog sa puso ko habang iniintindi ang sinasabi nang babaeng kausap ko.
‘Yong babaeng mahal na mahal ko.
I was about to asked her what’s going on, but she already ended the call. Puno nang katanungan ang isip ko. Hindi ako mapakali sa huling katagang sinabi niya. Fudge!
Kinagabihan, ay hindi ako nakakain. Pinanood ko lang ang vlogs ni Qolrine lalo na ‘yong vlogs na kasama niya ako, or she’s doing some prank with me. Pinanood ko lang ang mga ‘yon ng pinanood hanggang sa hindi ko namalayan, nakatulugan ko na pala ito.
IT’S BEEN a year since the greatest tragic days happened in our lives. The corona virus that kills numerous of life, including the life of the one and only person I love the most was finally ended after couple of months since it infects the Philippines.
“I miss her laugh. I miss her smile. I miss her hug. I miss her kiss. I miss my girl so freaking much.”
Hindi ko maiwasang mapangiti habang hinahaplos ang huling pahina nang journal ng lalaking pinakamamahal ko.
“I miss you so freaking much, Baby.”
I was fond of reading this journal simula nang mawala siya sa buhay ko. Yes, I survived my critical situation due to NCOV19 a year ago. When I finally regain my strength at nakauwi na nang bahay ay saka ko naman na receive ang balitang he passed away.
Hindi siya kinakitaan ng sintomas nang virus but his family was shock nang bigla na lang siyang mawalan ng malay. When they brought him sa hospital ay hindi na kinaya pa ng katawan niya. He was declared dead on arrival. But what surprise us the most ay, he was tested positive by the same virus that infected me, and yes— that’s the reason why he passed away.
The man who encourage, and stay with me in the midst of hardship due to the corona virus that infects me, was the one who died due to the same virus.